Addicted

I've wanted to break out, I've wanted to be free,

I've wanted to forget you, I've wanted to let you be.

I've wanted to move on, I've wanted to leave this pain behind,

I've wanted to stop dreaming about you, I've wanted you out of my mind.

I've wanted to love someone else, I've wanted to hold someone near,

I've wanted to run to a place , where not being with you is not a fear.

I've wanted to stop writing you love songs, only I read,

I've wanted to block your thoughts and the fantasies they feed.

I've wanted to hate you, I've wanted to separate you from my soul,

I've tried saving my self from drowning in your thoughts

looking for a shoal.

I've wanted so much to be able to ignore you,

I've wanted to stop thinking about the impossibility of our oneness

and stop feeling blue.

I don't know why I do this to my self

or what do I have in this to gain

the truth is, I'm just a romantic fool

who's addicted to pain.